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random thoughts, I am so emo sometimes
Ok this time I am going to talk about Tiger Woods but not just him, his family, mainly his children.

So not a lot of attention has been on the children, probably because they are so young. But I think later in life I think they would need help or some type of therapy or something like that. So everyone knows that Tiger Woods had cheated on his wife and entered into rehab. A lot of debate has come out on whether or not sex addiction is real. I believe it is real but I think it is a mental disease not a physical addiction. Just because it involves your body does not mean your body is addicted to it, your mentality is addicted to it; you believe that you can’t live without it; you believe that you need it. That sounds very mental to me not very

I know some of the downsides of mental diseases, especially sex addiction. I was told that porn addiction is considered a type of sex addiction. It’s a horrible mental disease.

It is embarrassing to admit that you are addicted to something, that your mentality is somewhat below others, that you no longer have any control over choices. It is so embarrassing but I believe it is worth it.
I have and still am in the shoes of Tiger Woods children, as well as others. I sometimes felt ashamed. It is very shameful to be a “cheater’s” offspring. You share half the same genetic DNA as the “playa”, or share some thoughts together, almost the same identity. It is embarrassing to be considered the offspring of a horrible person who cheated on their spouse, to be the offspring of a person who can’t admit their short fall, their addiction. His children along with me and other’s will always have to live with that, that you are a child of that person who either admitted and changed their life or got caught and did nothing about it. That behavior can be past down and cause a serious amount of damage. Cause pain to the children, stop a child’s mentally ability to grow and develop, cause of what they saw as a child. It has caused me pain and if someone says it doesn’t cause pain, then they are lying.

Sometimes I felt like I could never change myself because of my genetic DNA, my childhood and the way I looked at life. I sometimes felt like when everyone looked at me all they saw was “the cheater’s daughter” or “the sex addicts daughter” or “the porn stars daughter”. They never saw me, “Alicia” the catholic school girl, the girl who went to church nearly once a month in high school while her parent was online, achieving nothing. The parent was an addict who acted like they cared about their family but in the end that only cared about themselves. This parent ruined my life, my whole future and I will never forget that. May I forgive, I might have, I might will, it’s your choice of what you think I have done.

I also tried and will always try to stay away from those things even though it will always be at the house that I live in. But I am waiting to go to my real home, the kingdom, the best place ever. HEAVEN. This world is cold and ugly and so is the house that I live in. It has a billion evil things, many things that will draw me away from God. But I don’t want to be away from God. I want to be closer to God. So that is why now, I prefer to be with people who draw me closer to God. Because I am tired of wasting my time spending time with someone who denies God and pushed me away from God. I am so glad that I have met so many new wonderful people in my life that lead me closer to God and that’s what I prefer to be with and spend my time with, they are worth it. I love them and I love God.

I hope that children and family members of sex addicts and other addicts receive help. Addiction hurts everyone, whether you admit it or not. Believe I did not want to admit it, that I was hurt because of someone’s addiction but I was. I am now happier after receiving help. And I encourage others to get help, no matter how old you are, who the addict was, what the addict was addicted to. GO GET HELP!

That’s all I have to say


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